Granny

I have been very blessed in life but I would say the biggest blessing in my life is my family. My great grandmother (I call her Granny) is 91! How many people my age can say their great grandmother is still living? My children have been blessed with a relationship with their great great grandma which I think is also amazing! Another blessing is that I have not really had to see someone I am close with get sick or pass on. Now my Granny is sick and has been for a little while now.

It is heart wrenching for me to see her in a hospital bed, to hear doctors come in and say this and that and leave her when I visit. Last night I couldn't sleep. I lied there praying very little, mostly just being silent. See I know Granny wants to go home. She has been saying for months that she prays for God to take her home every single day. So I pray for no pain and I pray for His will to be done but it seems like such a vague insincere prayer. It doesn't seem to be enough but then last night God, in my silence, reminded me that I can pray for her healing. Praying for healing doesn't mean I am going against her wishes to go home. Healing doesn't always mean a physical healing here on Earth. It really doesn't make it that much easier but I do have some peace.

On the way home from the hospital Carter says from the back seat, "You know if I was super old like Granny and had to stay in the hospital super long, like all day and all night, I would be really sad." He said it with so much compassion for her it brought tears to my eyes. Then wouldn't you know "Temporary Home" came on the radio after that, once again reminding me of the fabulous outcome in the end for all of us if that is what we have choosen. Only God knows if Granny is here for another day, another year or another decade but then again only God knows those things for each of us too.